Ok so this post is partially named for what's going on in my life right now (just wait one second) and partially because i'm sure my grandma is going - where is that next blog entry i told her to write?
This one is for you grandma :)
so, what's up? Well clearly returning to the blog because i started online dating was a silly idea that lasted about as long as my gymnast career (what? - exactly). I did continue with the online dateing longer than i blogged about it however, but i think i've taken it up as more of a hobby - some actors learn to knit or get a temp job between shows - me? i go on first dates. meh. its something to do.............
segway....
i am not between shows right now, rather i am in the middle of two. Right now i am currently rehearsing for two shows! woopy! one is The Odyssey a new adapted version for the stage and the other - are you ready? are you sitting down? (duh, who uses the internet standing???) Crumble (Lay Me Down Justin Timberlake) Two very different shows in probably every aspect. The rehearsal experiances i can already tell are going to be different, the energy of the companies is entirely different, stories, goal of playwirte, goal of production etc. etc. etc.
BUT i am equally excited about both!
Odyssey
Exciting excteing things! For me as a non-speaking role (or 3rd-actor-from-the-left) its a different experiance honestly speaking since i got to mn. I am doing a lot of physical work which is awesome. i normally shy away from the movement stuff and i am having a far better time than i thought i would with it. Its challenging, and fun, and i feel special and feel like i am getting a moment to shine doing it too. I think most people are familiar enough with the story of Odysseus and his journey over seas and run ins with gods that i don't have to go in to too much detail. I am the prow of his ship that opens the show in a god created terrible storm at sea and then Odysseus' dog who is the only one to recognize him when he first returns home and then also a bunch of variouse servents and scene setters. oh! and a loom! I am getting a chance to work with some really amazing people who have been in this buissness in this town a long time. i am also meeting some awesome new people which is always fun about any show you do. AND i am collecting points or weeks towards joining the actors union! woot! first show that i can do that with - i got an official card and everything from the union stating that i am apart of their candidacy program. Yay! its like i'm a real actor or something ;)
for a fun peek (a few pictures!) at what odyssey is all about and what i have been doing almost everyday from noon until 8 since Dec 2o, you can go to the theater's rehearsal blog that they have made for this show. http://parksquaretheatre.tumblr.com/
Crumble (Lay Me Down Justin Timberlake) or as i called it for a long time Crumble Me Justin Timberlake is a great show - filled with confusion and obserdtiy and saddness and laughter and heart. I play a foul mouthed greasy 11 year old girl that is definetly one of those kids perceived to beat their own drum (or whatever the phrase is). She is smart for her age and trying to cope with having lossed her father and struggling with middle school all at the same time. Oh, and she loves Justin Timberlake. Oddly enough this really goes against my 6th grade self who was a total Backstreet Boys fan and never at any point owned a single album of NSYNC. I guess i'll have to do some charachter research for this one ;) I think the play will be awesome design wise, story wise, production wise, everything else wise too i guess. I'm in love with the script and my charachter. So far (3 days of rehearsals) we have been doing so much wonderful actor shmactor bullshit stuff. Playing theater games, developing a common language so we can really talk to each other on a more specific level when it comes to developing the show. I love this stuff, can't get enough of this stuff. All that stuff that make us actors people-watch all the time. or rather.... what comes of all that people-wathcing - playing games to try and replicate those interesting people we see out there in that big facinating world filled with the human condition. My director for this one also built into rehearsal time about 5 min of journaling at the end of the night - maybe that's why i am here, caught the bug i guess. I'm really bad at journaling - exhibit A: this blog.......so i think that will be good for me. especially because while this charachter is going to be endless amounts of fun to play i think she will also be a challenge for me. GOD I LOVE THIS STUFF!
Recently i had an existensial thought - could i just drop all of this cold turkey and not care? i don't think i came to a conclusive answer but then its moments like this or times like rehearsal tonight that i just remember that on some other level - i can't descirbe what ...deeper.....higher.....who knows but some other level it just does it for me. there is a click, a snap, a gear alighnment, a shift, a drop, a settleing........i don't know .......something that just feels good and relaxed and at peace. and all at the same time, i get tremblingly excited!
PS. Grandma's Footsteps is the British name for Red Light Green Light apparently. We played it to explore a state of tension that people will sometimes exist in for whatever reasons - you are trying to sneak out of the house unnoticed, you are carefully walking past a bomb so as not to set it off, you are in a cage with a ferocious lion, in this case, you are tense, i guess, because you don't want to wake Grandma. (see: actor shmactor bullshit)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Friday, July 16, 2010
Rules Of The Game
I never was so good at sticking to the rules. Socially or otherwise - i keep forgetting what they are - which makes for some messy games.....
I am so confused by the strange world of online dateing. Everyone has their own pace - everyone has their own rules - and nobody ever lets me in on it.
Kissing -
I don't think in any real world match - meeting someone by chance at a party/friendly get together/etc. - would i be kissing them the second time i ever saw them - i mean that would have to be some damn good chemistry or crazy vampire powers stuff (just finished another Anita book). I mean maybe if we talked a lot in between first date and second and the conversation chem was just as great as the in person chem (just to recap there would have to be amazing chem all around) - then i get it..... I don't know. this stuff is weird. Like how much touching is ok - hand on the leg, arm around the shoulder, hand holding when you walk together, etc. I mean it all just boils down to what feels comfortable for you right? its that "when you know, you know" thing i guess.
[insert number here] date appropriate activity -
Is it ok to go to someone's home for a second date? or what about a first date - yeah that has been offered.
Calling it off-
In person? At the end of a date? Voice male? Text?
i mean really what do i owe them - we are not going to be "friends" - i mean let's be honest, that's not what either of us are here for right? "J" needs to be done though. A good friend of mine said 3rd date is make it or break it - and we had our 3rd last night. Conclusion: break it. And Jewish online dateing would never be complete with out the guilt right? So i feel very bad that he paid for 3 dates worth and ended up paying for a couple of my friends drinks too. This is why i'm not really into letting a guy pay for everything. I mean i would be pissed....
And to top it all off, the cherry on all of the over thinking and circular logic that goes on in my head, the serial monogomist in me is going crazy! How can i like one guy but go on dates with another? well i kissed him, can i kiss the other one? How do i keep them all straight?
yeah i don't know if im cut out for all of this.......
So The Bachelorette: When i started this whole online dateing thing i had just recently gotten hooked on watching The Bachelorette. I couldn't help but feel like Ali and i were going through the same thing. It was like watching my life being more glamoursley played out in once a week episodes. I mean aside from the fanstastic dates happening all over the world in places people arn't really supposed to go - like old temples or the middle of a pool or a mens' bath house (i guess when your on TV you can do anything) aside from all of that, really, i'm basically the Bachelorette. EXCEPT they are moving way faster than i am - i can't imagine what we see is all the time they spend together - its week 8 or 9 and she's already met the families. And talk about ultimate monogomists night mare shes been "brought home" by 3 different guys. That's intense. SO unfortuantly my kindred spirit is beyond me at this point - i can't look to the show for advice or comfort anymore, it all being out of my realm now. Oh well. It was nice to have Ali there while it lasted.
Ok so now the updates:
"J" needs to go as we concluded earlier
"Cupid" seemed very into seeing me a 3rd time but went off to Japan and haven't heard from him yet
"Swinger" and i went on a lovely date (drinks and live music) which resulted in a second date at his place (he cooked me dinner and we watched big fish and cuddled on the couch)
"DVUP" and i havne't managed to meet up yet
but "AJDr" and i did and that was unfortunate. Thus he is appropriately named Awkward Jewish Doctor.
I am so confused by the strange world of online dateing. Everyone has their own pace - everyone has their own rules - and nobody ever lets me in on it.
Kissing -
I don't think in any real world match - meeting someone by chance at a party/friendly get together/etc. - would i be kissing them the second time i ever saw them - i mean that would have to be some damn good chemistry or crazy vampire powers stuff (just finished another Anita book). I mean maybe if we talked a lot in between first date and second and the conversation chem was just as great as the in person chem (just to recap there would have to be amazing chem all around) - then i get it..... I don't know. this stuff is weird. Like how much touching is ok - hand on the leg, arm around the shoulder, hand holding when you walk together, etc. I mean it all just boils down to what feels comfortable for you right? its that "when you know, you know" thing i guess.
[insert number here] date appropriate activity -
Is it ok to go to someone's home for a second date? or what about a first date - yeah that has been offered.
Calling it off-
In person? At the end of a date? Voice male? Text?
i mean really what do i owe them - we are not going to be "friends" - i mean let's be honest, that's not what either of us are here for right? "J" needs to be done though. A good friend of mine said 3rd date is make it or break it - and we had our 3rd last night. Conclusion: break it. And Jewish online dateing would never be complete with out the guilt right? So i feel very bad that he paid for 3 dates worth and ended up paying for a couple of my friends drinks too. This is why i'm not really into letting a guy pay for everything. I mean i would be pissed....
And to top it all off, the cherry on all of the over thinking and circular logic that goes on in my head, the serial monogomist in me is going crazy! How can i like one guy but go on dates with another? well i kissed him, can i kiss the other one? How do i keep them all straight?
yeah i don't know if im cut out for all of this.......
So The Bachelorette: When i started this whole online dateing thing i had just recently gotten hooked on watching The Bachelorette. I couldn't help but feel like Ali and i were going through the same thing. It was like watching my life being more glamoursley played out in once a week episodes. I mean aside from the fanstastic dates happening all over the world in places people arn't really supposed to go - like old temples or the middle of a pool or a mens' bath house (i guess when your on TV you can do anything) aside from all of that, really, i'm basically the Bachelorette. EXCEPT they are moving way faster than i am - i can't imagine what we see is all the time they spend together - its week 8 or 9 and she's already met the families. And talk about ultimate monogomists night mare shes been "brought home" by 3 different guys. That's intense. SO unfortuantly my kindred spirit is beyond me at this point - i can't look to the show for advice or comfort anymore, it all being out of my realm now. Oh well. It was nice to have Ali there while it lasted.
Ok so now the updates:
"J" needs to go as we concluded earlier
"Cupid" seemed very into seeing me a 3rd time but went off to Japan and haven't heard from him yet
"Swinger" and i went on a lovely date (drinks and live music) which resulted in a second date at his place (he cooked me dinner and we watched big fish and cuddled on the couch)
"DVUP" and i havne't managed to meet up yet
but "AJDr" and i did and that was unfortunate. Thus he is appropriately named Awkward Jewish Doctor.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Ok back to the blog......
Where does post grad adventures take you? New countries, new states, new jobs....how bout online dating?
recently inspired by a fellow online dater and good friend NJG (Nice Jewish Girl) who shares dateing sites with me - here i am - about to embarc on a new adventure - online dating!
please join me.
Lets start with the basics:
2 websites, 1 girl, and a summer with one show and one session of camp = a lot of time on her hands
i currently have profiles listed on JDate and on OKCupid.
What i like about JDate:
They are all Jewish
A lot of "chat" is used
extensive profile
What i like about OKCupid more than JDate:
Short answer profile prompts - forces you to really spend some time on it and gives you an opportunity to really put some of "you" on there
FREE - i don't pay for Jdate so the only way i can contact someone is if they are online and we "chat"
Ok. The boys. I shall change the names to protect he innocent. Behind door number one we have "J" and behind door number two we have "Cupid".
"J" and i met on Jdate one evening - chatted a little - i could see by his checked boxes that he might like one/but possibly more of boardgames/backgamon/chess (another thing i think is a little lame about JDate) so i went with why i checked that box myself: "So what's your favorite boardgame?" Hoping this was the right direction to go - it was. That simple little question got me a date at Chatterbox - restarant/bar with cupboards of board games and old school Nintendo video games (the ones my brother never let me play). If you know this girl at all - perfect first date!
We went we had a lovely date, lovely meal, good fun playing games(S0rry and Taboo), he payed (good cuase i'm no-joke-broke right now (see above: working one session of camp))
Do you feel the "but" coming yet?
He just came on way too strong - i felt like i was being given an oral resume!
Over complimentary
And said, in not so many words but did use the phrase "putting all my cards out on the table", i like you and want to pursue a relationship with you.
Here is a tip - this is a lesson i think i have recently learned - we all like a little bit of chase and mystery.
He's a nice enough guy, i mean i think he really means everything he says - as strange on a first date as it might be - but just too much too soon. I told him to cool his jets and stop trying so hard (ok so it didn't come out as harsh as all that but i'll take "a little rude"). I was hopeing maybe second date would prove to be a little less intense and him a lot more at ease. He said he felt comfortable around me and i earged him to talk himself through why he thinks i am so perfect for him. He wasn't any less nervouse - he scraped the side of his car while trying to park and i believe the analogy he used for us dateing later was "i'm putting my hand in the jar but i don't own the cookies". OH MY. Everyone was embarassed.
Biggest problem for "J" is how over shadowed he is by "Cupid"
"Cupid" - the worldly - the exciting - the adventurous - the tall.
"Cupid" also happens to be a J but i met him on OKCupid. He messaged me first and gave me kudos for coming to the TCs to pursue my art, asked me how i found the awkward interpersonal skills of Minnesotans to be treating me, and expressed hope that we are not related because his fathers side is also middle eastern and Jewish. Through emails i learned of his work with green energy and his guest lecturing in NY, his enjoyment of unique restaurants and cooking for himself, his explorative nature and his number. SO i called. We went to a fancy little joint for cocktails known for their unique creation. A grand ol' time or as he put it in his text message the following morning "a metric ton of fun". As he hugged me from the step below - so as to be a good hugging height (profile says 6'2'') - we planned to see each other again between his trip to NY for the 4th and his buissness trip to Japan. I guess i'm that great i'm worth planing a second date for sometime within a 2 day layover. SCORE!
"Cupid"'s second date: dinner and then seeing A Midsummer Night's Dream in the park
"J"'s 3rd date is tentativly planned for later next week
In other news:
23/m swing dancer who makes up words gave me his number - we'll call him "Swinger" for fun.
24/m deep voiced urban planner called - we'll call him just that "DVUP"
Next up:
The Bachelorette and WTF are the rules to this game?
recently inspired by a fellow online dater and good friend NJG (Nice Jewish Girl) who shares dateing sites with me - here i am - about to embarc on a new adventure - online dating!
please join me.
Lets start with the basics:
2 websites, 1 girl, and a summer with one show and one session of camp = a lot of time on her hands
i currently have profiles listed on JDate and on OKCupid.
What i like about JDate:
They are all Jewish
A lot of "chat" is used
extensive profile
What i like about OKCupid more than JDate:
Short answer profile prompts - forces you to really spend some time on it and gives you an opportunity to really put some of "you" on there
FREE - i don't pay for Jdate so the only way i can contact someone is if they are online and we "chat"
Ok. The boys. I shall change the names to protect he innocent. Behind door number one we have "J" and behind door number two we have "Cupid".
"J" and i met on Jdate one evening - chatted a little - i could see by his checked boxes that he might like one/but possibly more of boardgames/backgamon/chess (another thing i think is a little lame about JDate) so i went with why i checked that box myself: "So what's your favorite boardgame?" Hoping this was the right direction to go - it was. That simple little question got me a date at Chatterbox - restarant/bar with cupboards of board games and old school Nintendo video games (the ones my brother never let me play). If you know this girl at all - perfect first date!
We went we had a lovely date, lovely meal, good fun playing games(S0rry and Taboo), he payed (good cuase i'm no-joke-broke right now (see above: working one session of camp))
Do you feel the "but" coming yet?
He just came on way too strong - i felt like i was being given an oral resume!
Over complimentary
And said, in not so many words but did use the phrase "putting all my cards out on the table", i like you and want to pursue a relationship with you.
Here is a tip - this is a lesson i think i have recently learned - we all like a little bit of chase and mystery.
He's a nice enough guy, i mean i think he really means everything he says - as strange on a first date as it might be - but just too much too soon. I told him to cool his jets and stop trying so hard (ok so it didn't come out as harsh as all that but i'll take "a little rude"). I was hopeing maybe second date would prove to be a little less intense and him a lot more at ease. He said he felt comfortable around me and i earged him to talk himself through why he thinks i am so perfect for him. He wasn't any less nervouse - he scraped the side of his car while trying to park and i believe the analogy he used for us dateing later was "i'm putting my hand in the jar but i don't own the cookies". OH MY. Everyone was embarassed.
Biggest problem for "J" is how over shadowed he is by "Cupid"
"Cupid" - the worldly - the exciting - the adventurous - the tall.
"Cupid" also happens to be a J but i met him on OKCupid. He messaged me first and gave me kudos for coming to the TCs to pursue my art, asked me how i found the awkward interpersonal skills of Minnesotans to be treating me, and expressed hope that we are not related because his fathers side is also middle eastern and Jewish. Through emails i learned of his work with green energy and his guest lecturing in NY, his enjoyment of unique restaurants and cooking for himself, his explorative nature and his number. SO i called. We went to a fancy little joint for cocktails known for their unique creation. A grand ol' time or as he put it in his text message the following morning "a metric ton of fun". As he hugged me from the step below - so as to be a good hugging height (profile says 6'2'') - we planned to see each other again between his trip to NY for the 4th and his buissness trip to Japan. I guess i'm that great i'm worth planing a second date for sometime within a 2 day layover. SCORE!
"Cupid"'s second date: dinner and then seeing A Midsummer Night's Dream in the park
"J"'s 3rd date is tentativly planned for later next week
In other news:
23/m swing dancer who makes up words gave me his number - we'll call him "Swinger" for fun.
24/m deep voiced urban planner called - we'll call him just that "DVUP"
Next up:
The Bachelorette and WTF are the rules to this game?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sitting in a cafe in Chicago
Just sitting here - reflecting on my past week or so.
Ahhhh vacation - i will miss it terribly when i am back in the everyday grind of my life in MN.
I do like it in MN i enjoy where i'm living, i like the family that i'm living close to now and have been able to develop some quality relationships with, I am enjoying the people i have gotten to know in my time there, and i feel lucky to have had all the acting opportunities i have had since last February. Really the move has been a brilliant decision if i do say so myself and more than i ever could have expected has come from it.
I have been analyzing where i am lately though. In life, in acting, in teaching....
MN is my third place to call home. The second time i have just picked up and moved - to challenge myself - to attempt something new - to further the career i want for myself in some way. I just can't help wondering where do i go from here? People ask me if i think i might go back to NY someday others encourage me to move to LA - I say to them that each of these cities will have their time - their moment in my life. I don't think i am completely done with NY but i don't see it in the relatively near future. Same with LA really. So my question is still where do i go from here? Could i live in MN the rest of my life? i don't know about that - i mean definitely in the area i'm in right now - i get it. I get the appeal. I get why people come to the twin cities and just don't leave.
But i don't know about me.
other questions on my mind...
Teaching - is this really what i want to be doing right now - yes maybe in the long run or when all is said and done that's where i'll be - but damn teaching takes a lot of energy. I mean would i rather i was less involved no - at least i don't think that would be as fulfilling. But maybe i don't need fulfilling right now - i do want to focus on acting and my career - does teaching everyday allow for all the opportunities i could be taking part in? does teaching leave my energies and focus available for the rest of my life, which is supposed to be my priority right now? I don't really know/lean towards not, but maybe the grass is just greener on the other side.
i guess a new year coming leads to reflection and pause and taking in where you have been in the past year and suggests thinking about where you want to be going in the next year. Is this where seriouse resolutions come in? I've already come up with resolution number one - nothing too exciteing or original - i want to go back to yoga. Although maybe thats why i am in such a mood of reflection becuase it has all built up since the summer when i stopped going becuase life got busy. SO maybe yoga will help me get back in to a state of ease and a restful mind. Who knows really.
Being home was wonderful - getting to see my friends and family really involved in life - i think we are all still going through a period of "what is it i really want out of this world?" but either way we all seem to be out there making our way towards our goals or at least making our way towards figureing out what we want our goals to be. Seeing everyone and their homes and their lives for a split second really made me think just how grown up we've all become. Maybe this feeling is a little surprising becuase the majority of people i spent time with this trip were all freinds from way back when. Family freinds, 1st grade, middle school freinds. So maybe knowing all these poeple for so long has something to do with this feeling but none the less its impressive how quickly time flys and how fast we all grow up and join the real world. I mean in a matter of months we all seemed to have become adults. I'm impressed. I'm surprised by this feeling, but i am impressed.
Sitting in this cafe waiting for Elie to pop in and out of work - i am left to my own devices. So sitting and thinking is really all i got. And i've been so analytical and in my head over the past couple weeks - my brain is exauhsted. Maybe i just need to get back into the hussle and bussle of life - be distracted a little again. I think this is my problem - in my own head - i just go around in circles - around and around and around in circles. I never land anywhere. I think i just keep thinking about the same things but can never come to conclusion about it all. No wonder i am exauhsted. Also maybe i got to take a break from the caffeen - i can't imagine that helps when i have a lot of time bymyself on my hands. I just feel so restless. Maybe this is also becuase i spent a month of not really doing anything (i.e. no show to be rehearsing or performing) so i just feel restless cuase i am happy when i am a busy bee. So maybe its not the yoga i need (i need to go back to yoga but maybe not for my mental rest) or the distractions or even the change of life right now. Maybe i just need to go back to what my busy life was pre December. Hmmmmmm interesting thought. I thought maybe typing this out my help but i'm still not coming to any conclusions. I described it as having lots of strings - fraying the ends - and then walking away without tying any bows, let a lone big beautiful ones.
So as 2010 rapidly aproaches i leave my frayed ends of twisted rope for another day.
I'm going to go get something sweet from the front of this tea house i'm sitting in. And dream of getting rid of those calories as soon as i get to MN.
Bikram i am on way. 2010 i guess i have nothing to say to you but .....Bring it!
Ahhhh vacation - i will miss it terribly when i am back in the everyday grind of my life in MN.
I do like it in MN i enjoy where i'm living, i like the family that i'm living close to now and have been able to develop some quality relationships with, I am enjoying the people i have gotten to know in my time there, and i feel lucky to have had all the acting opportunities i have had since last February. Really the move has been a brilliant decision if i do say so myself and more than i ever could have expected has come from it.
I have been analyzing where i am lately though. In life, in acting, in teaching....
MN is my third place to call home. The second time i have just picked up and moved - to challenge myself - to attempt something new - to further the career i want for myself in some way. I just can't help wondering where do i go from here? People ask me if i think i might go back to NY someday others encourage me to move to LA - I say to them that each of these cities will have their time - their moment in my life. I don't think i am completely done with NY but i don't see it in the relatively near future. Same with LA really. So my question is still where do i go from here? Could i live in MN the rest of my life? i don't know about that - i mean definitely in the area i'm in right now - i get it. I get the appeal. I get why people come to the twin cities and just don't leave.
But i don't know about me.
other questions on my mind...
Teaching - is this really what i want to be doing right now - yes maybe in the long run or when all is said and done that's where i'll be - but damn teaching takes a lot of energy. I mean would i rather i was less involved no - at least i don't think that would be as fulfilling. But maybe i don't need fulfilling right now - i do want to focus on acting and my career - does teaching everyday allow for all the opportunities i could be taking part in? does teaching leave my energies and focus available for the rest of my life, which is supposed to be my priority right now? I don't really know/lean towards not, but maybe the grass is just greener on the other side.
i guess a new year coming leads to reflection and pause and taking in where you have been in the past year and suggests thinking about where you want to be going in the next year. Is this where seriouse resolutions come in? I've already come up with resolution number one - nothing too exciteing or original - i want to go back to yoga. Although maybe thats why i am in such a mood of reflection becuase it has all built up since the summer when i stopped going becuase life got busy. SO maybe yoga will help me get back in to a state of ease and a restful mind. Who knows really.
Being home was wonderful - getting to see my friends and family really involved in life - i think we are all still going through a period of "what is it i really want out of this world?" but either way we all seem to be out there making our way towards our goals or at least making our way towards figureing out what we want our goals to be. Seeing everyone and their homes and their lives for a split second really made me think just how grown up we've all become. Maybe this feeling is a little surprising becuase the majority of people i spent time with this trip were all freinds from way back when. Family freinds, 1st grade, middle school freinds. So maybe knowing all these poeple for so long has something to do with this feeling but none the less its impressive how quickly time flys and how fast we all grow up and join the real world. I mean in a matter of months we all seemed to have become adults. I'm impressed. I'm surprised by this feeling, but i am impressed.
Sitting in this cafe waiting for Elie to pop in and out of work - i am left to my own devices. So sitting and thinking is really all i got. And i've been so analytical and in my head over the past couple weeks - my brain is exauhsted. Maybe i just need to get back into the hussle and bussle of life - be distracted a little again. I think this is my problem - in my own head - i just go around in circles - around and around and around in circles. I never land anywhere. I think i just keep thinking about the same things but can never come to conclusion about it all. No wonder i am exauhsted. Also maybe i got to take a break from the caffeen - i can't imagine that helps when i have a lot of time bymyself on my hands. I just feel so restless. Maybe this is also becuase i spent a month of not really doing anything (i.e. no show to be rehearsing or performing) so i just feel restless cuase i am happy when i am a busy bee. So maybe its not the yoga i need (i need to go back to yoga but maybe not for my mental rest) or the distractions or even the change of life right now. Maybe i just need to go back to what my busy life was pre December. Hmmmmmm interesting thought. I thought maybe typing this out my help but i'm still not coming to any conclusions. I described it as having lots of strings - fraying the ends - and then walking away without tying any bows, let a lone big beautiful ones.
So as 2010 rapidly aproaches i leave my frayed ends of twisted rope for another day.
I'm going to go get something sweet from the front of this tea house i'm sitting in. And dream of getting rid of those calories as soon as i get to MN.
Bikram i am on way. 2010 i guess i have nothing to say to you but .....Bring it!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I believe its time....
Wow - its been so long i don't really no where to start.
Things are going well - hows that?
I'm really enojoying life here in the twin cities at this point. I have really developed some great friendships in the past few months. Teaching the kids is just more fun everyday, as they grow and learn more and are able to retain the things we teach them (that is the most amazing part about it). Auditoning and performing is continuing to go well. I am looking into getting some agent representation to start doing more on camera work soon. Right now though, i am home for a visit and will then be in Chicago for new years with the one and only EB.
i finished up my fall shows and am ending 2009 with some real positive work. I was really happy with the past couple of shows - proud to be working so consistently and having a lot of fun with the work and groups of people i have gotten know. Here's to it continuing.
As this year starts to come to an end. I realize how quickly 2009 went by. Pretty wild. i can't believe i have already been in the cities for 10 months. so much happened in the past year and i am eger to see whats in store for 2010.
I already have a couple of shows lined up. And what with teaching as well, it should be pretty busy right out of the gate.
I have a show starting rehearsals when i get back from vacation - this one is with the same company and some of the same people i worked with over the summer with my Fringe Festival show. This one will perform in February - not a large role but i do like the show. I think it will be a good one. Also i just heard about a show i auditioned for this past week - this one will be in April/May - really looking forward to this one (interested to read the script). It is with the Minnesota Jewish Theater Comapny. I havn't read the whole script - just bits and peices at auditions and call backs - so im not sure the whole story or what my character is really about but i gathered that the show is a pretty controversal one dealing with Orthodox jews in Meah Shearim in Israel and Homosexuality. (Like i said interested in reading the script)
I decided to not do the tour i did when i first got to minnesota again this coming spring. I was planning on it but once i got my teaching job and realised how much time i'd have to step away from the class room for it, i realised i didn't really want to do that to the kids. I think it was a good choice - its opened up some options for me - other shows i am now available to do (like the one i just described above) so i am happy with that decision.
Hannukkah was fun this year. i was worried a little bit about yet another holiday kind of on my own but one of my new good friends (the other assistant teacher for Pre K at school) is super fun, we get along famousley, and we had a hanukkah party with latkes and home made jelly donuts and everything. I think we were the only jews at the party but thats part of the fun. We told the story and tought peopel about dreidles and traditional foods and ate a lot! I think this hannukah i ate more latkes than i have in all my years of latkes . I owe that to Rachel- thanks.
Also celebrated with the Elhais that live in MN, we had a very enjoyable family hanukkah celebration together. I also got to decorate the tree - that was fun and pretty. Oh! and i got lots of hanukkah gifts from my students - a plate of cookies, gift certificates, a bottle of wine - really no one told me how good a gig this teaching thing is.
Now i am home - so far a good relaxing trip. Landed Saturday night - daniels bday. Totally surprised him - he had no idea i was coming home and it was a perfect birthday present. Its weird to be home with neither of the boys around. I do hope to get around to both apartments this trip to see how my brothers are getting along on their own. I hope to see lots of friends enjoy some good catch up and then head to Chicago for some new years fun. Thats basically it over here for now.
Hope everyone else is well
Happy new years to all of you, may 2010 bring success happiness and health to all.
-Roneet
Things are going well - hows that?
I'm really enojoying life here in the twin cities at this point. I have really developed some great friendships in the past few months. Teaching the kids is just more fun everyday, as they grow and learn more and are able to retain the things we teach them (that is the most amazing part about it). Auditoning and performing is continuing to go well. I am looking into getting some agent representation to start doing more on camera work soon. Right now though, i am home for a visit and will then be in Chicago for new years with the one and only EB.
i finished up my fall shows and am ending 2009 with some real positive work. I was really happy with the past couple of shows - proud to be working so consistently and having a lot of fun with the work and groups of people i have gotten know. Here's to it continuing.
As this year starts to come to an end. I realize how quickly 2009 went by. Pretty wild. i can't believe i have already been in the cities for 10 months. so much happened in the past year and i am eger to see whats in store for 2010.
I already have a couple of shows lined up. And what with teaching as well, it should be pretty busy right out of the gate.
I have a show starting rehearsals when i get back from vacation - this one is with the same company and some of the same people i worked with over the summer with my Fringe Festival show. This one will perform in February - not a large role but i do like the show. I think it will be a good one. Also i just heard about a show i auditioned for this past week - this one will be in April/May - really looking forward to this one (interested to read the script). It is with the Minnesota Jewish Theater Comapny. I havn't read the whole script - just bits and peices at auditions and call backs - so im not sure the whole story or what my character is really about but i gathered that the show is a pretty controversal one dealing with Orthodox jews in Meah Shearim in Israel and Homosexuality. (Like i said interested in reading the script)
I decided to not do the tour i did when i first got to minnesota again this coming spring. I was planning on it but once i got my teaching job and realised how much time i'd have to step away from the class room for it, i realised i didn't really want to do that to the kids. I think it was a good choice - its opened up some options for me - other shows i am now available to do (like the one i just described above) so i am happy with that decision.
Hannukkah was fun this year. i was worried a little bit about yet another holiday kind of on my own but one of my new good friends (the other assistant teacher for Pre K at school) is super fun, we get along famousley, and we had a hanukkah party with latkes and home made jelly donuts and everything. I think we were the only jews at the party but thats part of the fun. We told the story and tought peopel about dreidles and traditional foods and ate a lot! I think this hannukah i ate more latkes than i have in all my years of latkes . I owe that to Rachel- thanks.
Also celebrated with the Elhais that live in MN, we had a very enjoyable family hanukkah celebration together. I also got to decorate the tree - that was fun and pretty. Oh! and i got lots of hanukkah gifts from my students - a plate of cookies, gift certificates, a bottle of wine - really no one told me how good a gig this teaching thing is.
Now i am home - so far a good relaxing trip. Landed Saturday night - daniels bday. Totally surprised him - he had no idea i was coming home and it was a perfect birthday present. Its weird to be home with neither of the boys around. I do hope to get around to both apartments this trip to see how my brothers are getting along on their own. I hope to see lots of friends enjoy some good catch up and then head to Chicago for some new years fun. Thats basically it over here for now.
Hope everyone else is well
Happy new years to all of you, may 2010 bring success happiness and health to all.
-Roneet
Thursday, October 29, 2009
P.S.
Changed my pictures check them out. Production pics from the shows i've been in since i got here. Plus a pic from the new one opening Nov 7.
Also to see something i worked on this summer go here (check all 5 out they are great) :
http://www.vimeo.com/videos/search:zipnosis
Also to see something i worked on this summer go here (check all 5 out they are great) :
http://www.vimeo.com/videos/search:zipnosis
Thought i would write a little.....
It is quite gloomy here in MN. Rainy for the past couple days. I woke up this morning thinking i had missed day lights savings switch because it was so damn dark. I kept expecting the radio to say it was an hour earlier than it really was and then i would be able to go back to sleep.
Things are going pretty well. I have a show opening in a week and half, so we are starting to get down to the all consuming week of rehearsals right before opening. It's been a fun light short rehearsal process. I have to say i am looking forward to the break from shows for a while. I do have a good few projects i should get to work on completing that were started at the beginning of summer!
Marisol was an amazing experiance - i don't remember if i said something about it here yet or not. It truly goes on the list of best theater experinces in my life. Just a peice of work i am so proud of. I loved performing it (as much as i complained before hand - it was taxing - i loved being on stage and going through her journey each show) I wokred so hard to make it happen and the result was something i can not really put into words how i feel about. I said more than a few times that i was jelous of the audience becuase i would never get the chance to see the show unfold from an objective point of view. The rehearsal process was so challengeing, frusterating, overwhelming, fun, feirce, and empowering. I really went through so much during that experiance from feeling to green and inadiquite to really feeling like i had found the charecter and her world. I will miss it terribly. And this next show? has been like some bad watered down coolade in compareison.
Teaching at the preschool is going well. I am enjoying the children more and more each day. They are so fun, high energy, sweet little people. When i'm having a rough day - regardless of whether they are the cause or not - they will just go ahead and do something real cute and i am powerless.
Recently the wonderfulness that is childhood that they decided to share with me was lice! Yay! SO i have lice once again after 12 years of critter free hair ::a little shudder:: The best part was when i was washing my itchy head with some extra strength dandruff somthing or other (thinking that would do the trick) i discovered a little bug on my finger. Having had two kids pulled from school becuase of lice at this point, i quickly google imaged lice and found a direct relative of my little friend staring back at me. FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!
Yesterday was a day off from school filled with laundry, vacumeing, intense smelling shampoo, and lots of hair in my face. Also some creepy crawly feelings on my skin. again i repeat FUN!
The funniest part was when i looked around my apartment and realized i was worse than these kids: 4 stuffed animals, 2 pillows and a body pillow, 3 blankets - and thats just whats on my bed.
At some point you just got to laugh. Laughing is better than crying. so thats where i am.
The gloomy season and my cold apartment makes me think. i still miss home a lot, family and friends. I have made some friends here, but its still the beginging of those relationships, my freinds at home can be called fora trip to target(or insert any errand here) or to help me lug garbage bags of laundry up to my apartment, while i could probably call on my mn friends for that i feel like its just too soon. A friendship has to blossom before you can request manuel labor.....
I did plan a trip for my winter break from teaching, which i am so excited about. I will be at home for a good 10 days and then New Years is going to be with the one and only EB. Nothing could serve as better incentive to get through this gray season.
I didn't mention it here but i feel as if it might be time to let my blog followers in on things. Granted some of you already know, but the famous boy this blog was started in association with and i are no longer together. We broke up for several reasons, i will not go into, at the end of the summer, when Guy went back to Hungary. While this is a decision i am glad i made, feel relived about, and notice the differance in my life because of, needless to say, things arn't perfectly hunky dory. Break ups never are. They leave a lot of retrospective analysis and complicated feelings in their wakes. A rainy day is perfect for visiting that aspect of my life.
While not spending so much energy on that relationship has given me time to focus on my life here in MN, making freinds, working, school and shows, i still feel like i have a lot of time on my hands i didn't used to have. Yes i could use that time for the dishes in the sink, the memorizing or the many crochette projects i have lying around but somehow those don't get done. I guess i'm just chewing on everything a bit and finding it hard to be motivated to do stuff.
I am excited for this weekend. Going to hang out with 3 of my 7 mn friends (i'm counting) for halloween. Should be fun, i don't remember the last time i had a truly fun halloween. Maybe i just don't remember past halloweens now that i think about it......We are going to a show sat night that one of the freinds is opening and then who knows what the night will bring. i will also be doing my young cousins make up for his (truly yucky) girl costume (too much pink for me) which i know will be a blast. and of course lots of rehearsal. SO it will be a busy weekend which will be good. This past week i spent a lot of time at the family's house lots of birthdays in october. A different birthday dinner and present opening each night almost. It was fun to be able to be apart of all that. So aside form the lice thing its goingto be a pretty fun week in the end.
i guess all in all things here are good, just a little funk to go with the day. I could use a little sunshine soon.
Things are going pretty well. I have a show opening in a week and half, so we are starting to get down to the all consuming week of rehearsals right before opening. It's been a fun light short rehearsal process. I have to say i am looking forward to the break from shows for a while. I do have a good few projects i should get to work on completing that were started at the beginning of summer!
Marisol was an amazing experiance - i don't remember if i said something about it here yet or not. It truly goes on the list of best theater experinces in my life. Just a peice of work i am so proud of. I loved performing it (as much as i complained before hand - it was taxing - i loved being on stage and going through her journey each show) I wokred so hard to make it happen and the result was something i can not really put into words how i feel about. I said more than a few times that i was jelous of the audience becuase i would never get the chance to see the show unfold from an objective point of view. The rehearsal process was so challengeing, frusterating, overwhelming, fun, feirce, and empowering. I really went through so much during that experiance from feeling to green and inadiquite to really feeling like i had found the charecter and her world. I will miss it terribly. And this next show? has been like some bad watered down coolade in compareison.
Teaching at the preschool is going well. I am enjoying the children more and more each day. They are so fun, high energy, sweet little people. When i'm having a rough day - regardless of whether they are the cause or not - they will just go ahead and do something real cute and i am powerless.
Recently the wonderfulness that is childhood that they decided to share with me was lice! Yay! SO i have lice once again after 12 years of critter free hair ::a little shudder:: The best part was when i was washing my itchy head with some extra strength dandruff somthing or other (thinking that would do the trick) i discovered a little bug on my finger. Having had two kids pulled from school becuase of lice at this point, i quickly google imaged lice and found a direct relative of my little friend staring back at me. FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!
Yesterday was a day off from school filled with laundry, vacumeing, intense smelling shampoo, and lots of hair in my face. Also some creepy crawly feelings on my skin. again i repeat FUN!
The funniest part was when i looked around my apartment and realized i was worse than these kids: 4 stuffed animals, 2 pillows and a body pillow, 3 blankets - and thats just whats on my bed.
At some point you just got to laugh. Laughing is better than crying. so thats where i am.
The gloomy season and my cold apartment makes me think. i still miss home a lot, family and friends. I have made some friends here, but its still the beginging of those relationships, my freinds at home can be called fora trip to target(or insert any errand here) or to help me lug garbage bags of laundry up to my apartment, while i could probably call on my mn friends for that i feel like its just too soon. A friendship has to blossom before you can request manuel labor.....
I did plan a trip for my winter break from teaching, which i am so excited about. I will be at home for a good 10 days and then New Years is going to be with the one and only EB. Nothing could serve as better incentive to get through this gray season.
I didn't mention it here but i feel as if it might be time to let my blog followers in on things. Granted some of you already know, but the famous boy this blog was started in association with and i are no longer together. We broke up for several reasons, i will not go into, at the end of the summer, when Guy went back to Hungary. While this is a decision i am glad i made, feel relived about, and notice the differance in my life because of, needless to say, things arn't perfectly hunky dory. Break ups never are. They leave a lot of retrospective analysis and complicated feelings in their wakes. A rainy day is perfect for visiting that aspect of my life.
While not spending so much energy on that relationship has given me time to focus on my life here in MN, making freinds, working, school and shows, i still feel like i have a lot of time on my hands i didn't used to have. Yes i could use that time for the dishes in the sink, the memorizing or the many crochette projects i have lying around but somehow those don't get done. I guess i'm just chewing on everything a bit and finding it hard to be motivated to do stuff.
I am excited for this weekend. Going to hang out with 3 of my 7 mn friends (i'm counting) for halloween. Should be fun, i don't remember the last time i had a truly fun halloween. Maybe i just don't remember past halloweens now that i think about it......We are going to a show sat night that one of the freinds is opening and then who knows what the night will bring. i will also be doing my young cousins make up for his (truly yucky) girl costume (too much pink for me) which i know will be a blast. and of course lots of rehearsal. SO it will be a busy weekend which will be good. This past week i spent a lot of time at the family's house lots of birthdays in october. A different birthday dinner and present opening each night almost. It was fun to be able to be apart of all that. So aside form the lice thing its goingto be a pretty fun week in the end.
i guess all in all things here are good, just a little funk to go with the day. I could use a little sunshine soon.
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